Ultimately, she went back to hair and makeup and spoke to her manager about her discomfort. "I was, like, crying in my trailer. I'm like, ‘I don't want to do this. It

Ultimately, she went back to hair and makeup and spoke to her manager about her discomfort. "I was, like, crying in my trailer. I'm like, ‘I don't want to do this. It feels dirty. It feels like they're trying to sex everything up,'" the mother of two described.

Sophia said she agreed, that it felt like the writers "turned it up to a 10 out of nowhere."

"I felt like a prostitute. It was the first moment that I was, like, ‘I'm kissing someone for money. I'm getting paid to do this, like, performative [thing]'," Hilarie explained. "There's a morality thing where you're like, ‘Am I a sex worker in a way? Is this OnlyFans in 2003?'"

Hilarie mustered up the courage to go back on set after her hairdressers and makeup artists took a shot of grapefruit vodka with her, and she recalled on the podcast how this moment made her realize she wasn't alone. "All the women in the trailer got together and they're like, ‘You may feel like you're in this all by yourself, but we are here. We are standing right behind the monitor. Cheers to you being a badass, kiddo,'" Hilarie shared. "It was such a moment of sisterhood that really solidified my friendships behind the camera, because I knew that we were going to continue to do stuff that felt weird."